Through all of this craziness I feel like I have lost a sense of myself. I have always known and trusted that my God had everything in control but despite that I let each new trial knock me down a little bit. Looking back it is so frustrating to see that I allowed that because I know that is not and has never been what the Lord has in mind for me. He has gone ahead of me to prepare situations and opportunities designed specifically with me in mind. He has given me gifts to be used and shared but over the last year or so I have pushed those things aside and instead allowed myself to feel useless and unworthy. But that is not me! That is not who I was created to be!
1 Peter 2:9-10 says, "But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation. His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light; who once were not a people but are now the people of God, who had not obtained mercy but now have obtained mercy."
The Lord has obviously brought me through all of this stuff for a reason. He has given me personal experience with some crazy things. He has blessed me with amazing people to encourage and walk along side me. He has given me things to be passionate about and has placed desires in my heart. He has done all of these things so that I "may proclaim the praises of him who called [me] out of darkness into His marvelous light." So now I'm moving on towards another season of life. One of finding confidence and redefining my identity in Christ. Only a close and honest walk with my Savior can give that confidence and identity; not success or failures. So anways... here's to the hope of the future!